i'm irritated for many reasons
earlier, its because i discovered i've got appointments lined up
followed by weekends going to be burned

then, mum called
and it made me very irritated over her updates to me about 弟弟
and now, i'm irritated again

i can't link back to my old entries！

"HOW AH...?"
when i'm at work, people always asked me this question
and looked for answers, which i tried to answer
but for this time, "How ah????"

one step at a time.
no blogging until i fix this.


再见！
it feels terrible not able to help
it feels even worse when those people in need
are people that are considered important people
some people that you considered as close to a real friend

time to time,
i whine about my work
others whine about it too
i whine about the pretty long hours
heat taken from clients from things that are usually beyond your control
answerable for things that are beyond your responsibilities
getting pathetic pay that you question yourself every time you receive you see that unjustifiable amout written in your pay cheque
but nothing, honestly nothing had made me feel so disappointed before
than what had occurred today

hearing my faithful generals woes makes me furious
all the unjust statements,
the teary eyed with anger
honestly, it makes me sad
also fuming with anger
a little more than just my subordinates
the way things are handled are just unprofessional
and the action taken are so uncalled for
for the sake of some pathetic dollars
by all my times with my working days,
this should be the dumbest thing ever committed
just plain, untactful
and unreasonable
like a big bully

i wondered;
have they turned a blind eye recently?
by what they is doing,
does this indirectly shows that contribution does not count anymore?
i guess selfless contributions & personal time sacrifices that doesn't bring profits are just invisible

over such trivial money,
is this all worth the loyalty and trust build through out these years?
it's not just Lego,
you don't just build, destroy and continue the cycle

it disgusts me knowing that some people try to get into good books at the expense of others misery
have you no shame, at all?!
and telling me it's diplomatic and all inevitable
saying that you will not interfere after all the big dumb suggestions
cut the crap, please
it's making my ears bleed

people that doesn't rebuke does not mean they can be bullied

tired.
i have to stop myself from all evil thoughts here's a real post entry dedicated to ms vi
just because i need to let her know my souvenirs of choice
(altho in some listed, Lame J is gng to scream with disagreement ~leggings)

here goes some of inspiration while shopping, VI
1) complicated extreme zippers hoodie




































































































2) Baseball jacket - with hoodie































































if all fails, i'd be very upset.

THANKS VI! closing to 2am
and i am still awake
worried, and stressed

in another 4.5 hours or so
i need to be awake
tomorrow is another long day
it will lead to another few longer days
right until it hits good friday
where when everyone will enjoying their hols
i'll once again, stuck at work

i think to myself, some(all) times
is this fair
to compromise on my long weekends
just that i can get a couple of days relieved
when i'm away for my annual leave
working ass off right a few days before
for of well deserved short lived holiday
will a holiday not be 'enjoyed'
if a couple of days before it were not killed by endless nights of nothing but work,
usually, when you are in dubious situations like this
you would have half expected the answer
i can't be doing this much longer, honestly

on a lighter note,
ms vietnam is going to korea
(yes, there's some irony JUST because she's from vietnam)
i am choosing my souvenirs, if i can fit into them
:) what a sunday
the piggies, Lolita Horsey and Mysteria has their cribs all cleaned and comfy
(to an extent their crib is in better condition than mine!)
and the laundry's done
what's never enough is my sleep


back to blogging,
i'm very disturbed
can't decide if i wanna privatised it
and now that i fixed a tagboard,
i can't decide if i want it, to begin with
dang!

anyway, something interesting i saw online
latest men trend in JP
LEGGINGS!


interesting or what?
i'm definitely inspired, seriously
and secretly want to steal from abeille's shop to try them on
(provided they have my size!)
but those conservative and opinionated eyes of the many
kills the joy.
sigh. one last look, again





Question of the night: Hong Kong or Taiwan. Or Both? woke up @ 1000am on a sunday morning and still managed to go for a short walk
yup, it's unbelievingly ME
i think the heat of the morning sun killed my energy

i feel tired and hungry now
supposed to be in the office but
that can(have to) wait till tomorrow

btw, tagboard's up in case anyone is interested to let me know that they are stalking me
uh-huh

something random
who said in terms of chinese horoscope, rooster is going to have a great year
so far it's been hiccups, lost of minor fortune and endless minor health problems
AM I A ROOSTER OR WHAT?!

something random #2
peers that seen my haircut mostly hate it
if they don't tell it to my face,
i reckon they might have thought of "the ugly haircut" to themselves, with a shudder
boo-hoo
hair grow and we can change them after some time,
but can't help to think that this image will be always remembered
boo-hoo x 2


that aside, oversea trip to neighbor's neighbor, country T, city B will be soon
next weekend, to be exact
holidays makes me excited
but the thought of leaving work makes my stomache churn
sigh. should it be this way all the time?

abeille (guess who?) is changing shop name to ______
Ha ha ha! Yet to be decided actually
if i did not recall wrongly, she has yet to decide if she's changing it
when things aren't decided by flipping coins
u'd tend to shake and waiver a little
well, just for encouragement
no right or wrong decisions
just good or bad ones
and we likely won't know till we decide


i'm hungry.
gonna cook myself some nasty unhealthy noodles to fill that big stomach of mine
urgh.
toot-toot. had it really been almost 18months already since i last blogged?

oh
Happy New Year 2010
i know i'm close to a quarter year late

for the interest of some invisible readers,
many unhappy things happened since i last blogged
end of 2008 was exceptionally dreadful
in fact, no words can ever describe the lost of the one you loved dearly
so, don't ask me how 2009 passed
as i can't remember

in the new 2010
i changed the blogskin and blogname
but don't ask me anything more

it'd be a good year.
and what's more
i'm back to bloggin'
yippee.
*Hear me whine........
well, i'm actually left with no other options
but to blog here
one loserish person even had her tag board removed for god's sake
apparently she had guts to write and diss others openly on her blog session
yet when i called and confronted to question, she hung up on me
just what the fuck is this?
okay, so i'm not worth her that few 20cents of her hard earned money
yet i'm so worthy of your time spilling every inch of your own assumptions for?
this is even more contradicting, no?

anyway, YOU
for one that cowardly hanging up phone really shows your personality
honestly, i was facing you like an adult yet you slammed down the phone
for a fact you can big mouth to the whole world with your childish and brainless statements
you can make all in the world crude remarks about the life of lesbians based on your idiotic sacarsm which hurts other people's feeling (which one or 2 may the ones that you want them to be still called you friend?) Seriously, you're making me laugh!
yet i'm much more shock that sounded like a mouse over the phone
if there's nothing wrong, don't slam down the phone
talk to me like how 'interesting' and bold you wrote in your blog
for two i couldn't understand how does hating one means spreading the hate around,
are you okay? it's like you have this ugly fat cancer in your body spreading bitchy cells around from that wayang make up face to those poisionous words
for three don't go 'oh-cos-you -are-her-girlfriend' statements, it's the LAMEST thing i heard
for four, even if people have money is their god damn problem
On the contrary, it sounded more like you are jealous rather than you are just casually gossiping
for five, i felt that there shouldn't be anyone more ill -mannered and terrible upbringing than you
but still, i don't blame your family. Cos i don't go beat around the bush and speak ill of one's parents
i don't think you even heard of anything called KARMA, i believe?
with a mouth like yours, i don't believe you'd go anywhere further in life
stop treating as if this world is build up of you and your 'true' friends
your much talk about life are just built on your own perceptions of an ideal life but it only potrays how immature and materialistic you can get
bcos of some money and your few missed calls of the holy-ass queen as you claimed to be, you turned a friend into an enemy
and bring a full aqquaintances into part of your boring blog gossip
just how shallow can you get?
there are alot of ways to getting attention
and by going that direction are getting you to nowhere land
you're just tagging yourself how much you're worth
and how low can you get as a person
if you can bitch about someone you know for some time
i worry for your Bunny friends and others whom you now say you trusted
oh but for fuck i care

BY THE WAY, let's stop this seriousness a lil while
now that you already start calling names and sounded ridiculous etc
let me name you a few things that many others around you would want to say to you but might not have the guts to
i don't mind listing them as long as they are TRUE and not just some so-called gossips to like how you did just fill in an entry in your pathetic blog. Lolx

1) you have terrible sense of dressing, you know! even during the most normal days, your made every single cloth and tread on your body look miserable
2) honestly, you can kiss your own ass and call yourself a queen. no one would do that even if you were the breathing thing left on earth, LET ALONE LICK/KISS/TOUCH YOUR SMELLY ONE TOE
3) yes, people are fat but you are too just that you forgotten to look at the mirror every single time. Baba is so under-rated. Fat is the word. Don't hide. Accept.
4) Next word you'd gotta accept of yourself is that you are so NOT not ugly. Please. You have a weird sense of humour, especially you said you hated fat and ugly. I mean, look at yourself. Ask 10 and probably 20 bystanders would agree to that addition too. if you can't count basic maths, that amount to 30 out of 10! Lolx.
5) You should be hating yourself quite a lot i reckon, cos that 3-inch thick makeup doesn't seem to cover the pimples you said you hated
6) I don't buy the story that any guy would want your number. that's why i guess places which are dark enough should be getting u more suitors? anyway, one time fuck desperates lurks everywhere. By throwing yourself with these undersized and overdressed attire only make u more eligible. it's just a matter of how cheap you can get
7) oh don't talk about silly offspring please. at the rate you're going, you're bound to be contributing anything worse than silly offsprings to the society.
8) You said you hope to retain friendship with some people? Oh please spare me those details seriously. no one really treated you as a real friend. so stop thinking too highly of yourself. We're just being nice all these while to not reject you
9) You said you want me to introduce some industry people to you. I'm glad that i had big handful potential people and totally declined you. Can't imagine what trouble i might land myself in
10) Stop looking down on people. Whatever people choose in their life and career path are their choices. So you don't having any fucking right to comment about them. It's never your right and I don't think I need to add anymore vulgarity to get that fact into your head

Actually, i don't feel at all embarrassed of my choice in life
it's my life
so just who the fuck are you to make such remarks about me
I mean i called to ask you
But you hang up on me
My tag board's here
Feel free to tag, with simple answers
of course, sarcasm are not welcomed
cos it's a waste of virtual space, altho it's free
(yes, it's just that meaningless!)

and the only thing that embarass me is that i get acquainted to you
your false pretenses, back stabbing totally put off even a guy, what more a potential friend
please.
there's more to life than YOU and YOURSELF
have you humiliated yourself enough? well,
call me an eavesdropper
but i could be a professional one *tsk

anonymous 1 was having a conversation with anonymous 2
anonymous 1 complained & whined about her argument with her bf
"i mean...i know i look better than him.."
"and i have better dress sense, and i'm pretty sure of it"
it turned me into a stone for awhile
this MUST BE weirdest comparison made between a couple
in my little humble opinion lor, if u peeps think nothing of it

Haha.
oh Anoynomous 1, i deserve my credits for naming u so
And if you're smart enough, you'd be discreet over ur statements

Aside to;
CEO graduated
CONGRATULATIONS!
she made me proud
(and relieved)
especially that poster showing off the white rabbit's that made me half vomit
reminiscing some sleepless nites acting as a dumb-dumb opinion giver
cum part time print outs cutter,
eyes half open likely cutting my fingers away in the wee hours of morning
and suddenly, it came to me her graduation would almost become fireworks
the exact same feelings of fireworks above my head when she tells me i could finally get my sleep
when she's rushing her mad-ass ignments
baaahs

heehee
nitemare's over, nononi ((:
ta-aa-daahh
although you dun read my blog,
STILL
it's most polite(and economical) to dedicate a post to you
to the mad drunkie
happy 21st
stay decent and less pissing everyone off
((:

best wishes,
tuajee