it feels terrible not able to help
it feels even worse when those people in need
are people that are considered important people
some people that you considered as close to a real friend

time to time,
i whine about my work
others whine about it too
i whine about the pretty long hours
heat taken from clients from things that are usually beyond your control
answerable for things that are beyond your responsibilities
getting pathetic pay that you question yourself every time you receive you see that unjustifiable amout written in your pay cheque
but nothing, honestly nothing had made me feel so disappointed before
than what had occurred today

hearing my faithful generals woes makes me furious
all the unjust statements,
the teary eyed with anger
honestly, it makes me sad
also fuming with anger
a little more than just my subordinates
the way things are handled are just unprofessional
and the action taken are so uncalled for
for the sake of some pathetic dollars
by all my times with my working days,
this should be the dumbest thing ever committed
just plain, untactful
and unreasonable
like a big bully

i wondered;
have they turned a blind eye recently?
by what they is doing,
does this indirectly shows that contribution does not count anymore?
i guess selfless contributions & personal time sacrifices that doesn't bring profits are just invisible

over such trivial money,
is this all worth the loyalty and trust build through out these years?
it's not just Lego,
you don't just build, destroy and continue the cycle

it disgusts me knowing that some people try to get into good books at the expense of others misery
have you no shame, at all?!
and telling me it's diplomatic and all inevitable
saying that you will not interfere after all the big dumb suggestions
cut the crap, please
it's making my ears bleed

people that doesn't rebuke does not mean they can be bullied

tired.
i have to stop myself from all evil thoughts